Down in the depths of hell,

My Jesus came and found me,

It was my home,

It seemed forever.

My cries echoed in the lonely halls,

Mirrors reflecting grotesque scars,

Shattered glass of memories,

Bound in dirty linen.

My soul wrapped in pain,

Black shadows billowed,

Encircled, tight.

Fears, amid scorching revenge.

No balm to cool cracked erupting emotions.

Storms burrowed incessantly,

Mind, whipped and lashed,

“Lord?” I cry “Can you help this raging soul?”.

Darkness, blind mans buff, this is no party, Comfort?

I think not!

 Which way?

This way?

Or that way?

Catch me if you can?

They did!

Burning hot arrows,

Flames of deceit,

Words gorged with lies,

Living in a hell hole of debauchery.

Why am I so dirty?

How can I get clean?

“I’m such a mess”

Who will have pity on me?

He says ‘I am’, ‘I can’ and ‘I will’

“Come to the cross my child; see these scars”

He says “For you, just for you”

“Come, I know you are tired,

Let my arms enfold” He says.

“Come into my boat,

My anchor is secure,

Let me steer to still waters”.

His Hands, His Feet,

Scared by pain,

I notice,

Lines of flesh criss cross; catch my eye.

Himself rejected, tortured,

Through Hell’s Mouth,

His hands, reach out, gesturing friendship,

Their firm, but soft grip,

Hold forever.


Fear removed, comfort,

Friendship, Love?

Rest, peace entwines,

My Saviour,

My Jesus,

My Lord.

He leads me on,

Pastures green.

His smile of love I never forget.


My Alpha and Omega

August 24, 2007

He was there at the beginning,

He will be there at the end, My Alpha and Omega,

My God in whom I trust.

His Hand firm, grasps securely to mine,

Chained in love divine,

My fears subside, knowing He’s there,

His mercy to me He did spare.

What love is this that flows to me?

So free and precious that I should see;

The beauty of His presence behind the veil,

But torn in two for sinners fail.

His truth dost stand for all eternity,

No-one in all the earth can compare,

To our God who suffered for us,

To set us free,

To be higher, flying closer to thee.

Oh what wondrous things unfold,

When Jesus Our Saviour from of old,

Risen from death into glorious Life,

That we might join Him,

With Angels Delight,

Our Hearts entwined for all time,

Yes Our Alpha Omega He is thine!

Israel’s Shepherds

August 24, 2007

Feelings are part of our carnal life and although God recognises our weaknesses and vulnerabilities, I believe He wants to lift us to higher plains. To fly like eagles believing His Word, trusting in His Word and watching the victory of His Word materialise.

We are often let down by the very people we trust. These can be our own families, whom we have known since birth. We can be let down particularly by our leaders of our faith in Jesus. Our carnal nature, looking up to anyone in a so called higher position is idolatrous in nature. It is our self which creates idols whether they be in someone, something or even a place which brings calm to our lives.

But as I read God’s Word and take deeper His perspective, His truth is that man cannot be trusted. Man’s word is flawed, biased and from limited thinking. We, as humans are damaged goods, the genetics are damaged so trying to rectify this is only going to fail. The old heart needs to be transplanted with a new one given by Jesus.

New life can only take place in our lives through Jesus. His blood shed for us on the cross is clean and righteous and covers all sins.

The truth is only God is good.

I hear myself saying ‘oh he’s a good man’ I’m aware that this is not true; none of us is good. Our motives are very often selfish and biased towards feeding ourselves. All have sinned and fallen short of the Glory of God.

Shepherds overseeing their flocks as mentioned in Ezekiel 34 are failing the flock. There are many saints left on the wayside in need of healing, love and acceptance. I was drawn to this scripture last night and knew in my heart as I meet so many women particularly and some men who have been abused. They have been scattered. They have been neglected and like the good samaritan left for dead, sometimes physically and more often than not spiritually.

“Thus saith the Lord God; Behold, I am against the shepherds; and I will require my flock at their hand, and cause them to cease from feeding the flock; neither shall the shepherds feed themselves any more; for I will deliver my flock from their mouth, that they may not be meat for them”. EZEKIEL 34 v 10

The shepherds have trusted in man and man-made ideals and moved away from dependence on God, God’s Hand is lifting from them.

For those that are scattered, bruised and torn the Lord says

” I will seek that which was lost, and bring again that which was driven away, and will bind up that which was broken, and will strengthen that which was sick: but I will destroy the fat and the strong; I will feed them with judgment” EZEKIEL 34 v 16

“Thus shall they know that I the Lord their God am with them, and that they, even the house of Israel, are my people, saith the Lord God.” EZEKIEL 34 30

001.jpgI stopped by at my church a few weeks ago, to find my friend Peggy. She wasn’t there, but there were other christians, some familiar to me, chatting. I felt uncomfortable as I was ignored and it made me feel out of place. My heart sank. I cried out to God ‘Not again Lord!’ I would have had more of a welcome at my husband’s workplace than my church. The words ‘The love of most will grow cold’ sprang to my mind. For a split second I was hurt and angry. The Lord spoke, ‘Forgive them’. I did, but my heart was saddened, not just for me, but for God.

Musing over my unsuccessful visit to church, I headed back home. I was drawn back to my painting which I had started earlier that week. I was painting, or trying to paint, Jesus’ stripes, where He had been whipped and bleeding. On this occasion I left the painting, as I sometimes do, for up to weeks at a time. I like to think over the significance of the imagery I’m trying to create working with the Holy Spirit.

Over the next few days the painting changed. It got murkier and murkier. Layers and more gashes appeared, I sensed the Holy Spirit was trying to tell me something.

‘What has been made holy is being trampled upon’.

The Good News of Jesus Christ has become through the works of satan, ‘Bad News’ due to false teaching and false prophets. The Bible strictly says to test all manner of teachings and doctrines as they are deceptive and do not all come from the Holy Spirit. God’s voice is not in the earthquake, the wind or fire but in the STILLNESS.

Jesus’ gift of eternal life is precious, perfect and holy. His precious blood, His very life given for us, is being trampled upon and muddied. God’s Living Waters is being tampered with and poisoned.

My thoughts turned to some of my brothers and sisters who have been ostracised and live almost in solitary confinement, separated, cast out, not loved, nor listened to. ‘Love one another’, is a commandment. not a request of Jesus. ‘Forgive one another’ and do not cause those weaker in the faith to sin. Humble yourselves to your brothers and sisters.

Broad is the path to hell and narrow the path to life. It is hard, and Jesus says few will find it. But God will reward the righteous. ‘A servant is not above his master’. Christ came to serve and not to be served.

‘He that saith, I know him, and keepeth not his commandments, is a liar, and the truth is not in him’. 1 John 1 v 4.

‘He that saith he is in the light, and hateth his brother, is in darkness even until now’. 1 John 1 v 9.

National Repentence

August 8, 2007

 Call for national repentance

In the eighth month, in the second year of Darius, came the word of the Lord unto Zechariah, the son of Berechiah, the son of Iddo the prophet, saying,

The Lord hath been sore displeased with your fathers.
Therefore say thou unto them, Thus saith the Lord of hosts; Turn ye unto me, saith the Lord of hosts, and I will turn unto you, saith the Lord of hosts.

Be ye not as your fathers, unto whom the former prophets have cried, saying, Thus saith the Lord of hosts; Turn ye now from your evil ways, and from your evil doings: but they did not hear, nor hearken unto me, saith the Lord.

Your fathers, where are they? and the prophets, do they live for ever?

But my words and my statutes, which I commanded my servants the prophets, did they not take hold of your fathers? and they returned and said, Like as the Lord of hosts thought to do unto us, according to our ways, and according to our doings, so hath he dealt with us.

ZECHARIAH 1 v 1-6 (Word received this morning 8/8/07)